a week behind

But then, that's obvious. Yet, I have finished 4-6 and am here to discuss.

How in the world do I sum up three chapters that hit me so deeply? the whole thing about a woman feeling like she's 'too much' and 'not enough' is so true. For me, for other women I know.

I think the biggest new idea was that Satan was out for our blood. Because of beauty and because of our ability to give life (even if we never have kids). I mean, women have been treated so terribly over the centuries and i never thought it was because of Satan's agenda. Sort of explains a lot of it. The fact that we are so important that he really hates us. It's kind of cool. I mean, we're a big threat. We are so awesome and valuable to God and to others, that Satan is threatened.

Ha, take that!

I don't know where my wounds come from really. A few I can point to where the specific hurt began, but most of them just kinda showed up and were reinforced. I was blessed (am blessed, actually) to have really loving parents. A dad that I could see God through. A mom who thought I was brilliant (and these are still true). The wounds really didn't come so much from them (though some did, i'm sure).

The moving did a lot. Never having friends for longer than 3 years kind of affects you. Never having really good friends till Taylor did more damage than I realized. My fear of being 'too much' comes from 'friends' in high school who only liked me when i was in a good mood. I've never thought of my constant moving as being something I might need to look at. The fact that I'm still friends with all of you, nearly ten years in the making, is still a complete shock.

The idea that God thwarts our turning to other things for satisfaction was interesting. The big picture idea, that perhaps when we don't get what we want or the like, is actually God trying to get us to look at him, cause He is the only thing (being) that can satisfy our longings. Kind of puts my lack of boyfriend in a new light.

This book, second time round, is teaching me things still. New things. Reinforcing ideas that I saw the first time through. I think i could read it a billion times and still keep learning.